ive been thinking a bit abt my gender and stuff zzz i dont rlly gaf anymore abt what im seen or perceived as, as well as what terms n pronouns r used anymore.. thank god for the day i found out what apagender is cause ive never went back since. i think that mmm being biologically female does play an important part in myself and how i am as a person morals n social awareness n all but at the same time i dont rlly think it affects my identity all that much if that makes sense ... i am pretty lucky that i dont gaf at all abt my gender or wtv cause seeing other ppl feel dysphoric must suck ass man. that being said having girl at the end of my roblox user pisses me off sorta PLEASE GIVE ME A FREE USER CHANGE OH MY HOD

they say that nobody knows you better than yourself but like man i dont knooooowwwww..... i mean it does make sense that i dont have random ppl tell me im this or that when everyone has diff perceptions of me but wow im so freaking lost. some ppl dont rlly bother w things like mbtis and enneagrams and whatever labels and well yeah we really dont need to put a label on everything esp as us humans r too complex to be put into a concrete set of rules and stuff but ouhh... having an answer to how and why im the way i am is nice too,,, im throwing myself into a loop w all this typology stuff and at the end of the day it rlly is just all pseudoscience and i prob shouldnt be taking it this srsly huh. its fun reading stuff to pass the time though i cant! deny that!!! but its definitely crazy overwhelming. cant tell if im this or that and i rlly cant quite tell if i fit a certain type or if its just a characteristic that i desire rather than have so . maybe itll come to me naturally at some point maybe im just rushing it but who knows really zzzzz

anyways i was just listening to thsi i feel like whatever this song is about