3/25/26 This site itches my head really nicely,, shocking: guy who lurks on sns likes the site called lurk.me thr endjng will shock you . People have such cute sites ouuuu god i wish i could do that too.... Mm i dont have much work to do today but im too lazy to do them still hhhhhhhh i dont have to report onsite tmr though so. I should be fine. More sleep for me so fun

3/29/26 i think i am kinda lucky that not too smart and i get decently high grades yeah but instead im so irrationally scared of talking to people its so ??????? i hate that i keep unintentionally getting left out but i physically just. Cant speak out about it. My incapability of socializing will be the death of my oh my god if this ends up being the reason i dont get honors im so screwed ........ I really cant wait until i can switch schools to start over again from scratch somewhere where there arent rlly any established connections yet but in the meanwhile ill have to deal with whatever rhis is ouughhhghhhh

4/11/26 got accepted into my dream (is it???) school auguhh it doesnt feel real at allll..... Cant tell if i really am cut out for it or i just so happened to get lucky w the slots .. its a top school after all. I was so confident i woukdnt make it in w how i guessed practically all of a math items during the exam hhhhhh i was hoping to move schools so. I could get away from my current batch nad start sll over but every other person in my batch applied too i think????? Idk if everyone passed but surely a lot of them r in diferent courses so..... Mm now im kimd of forced to get my shit together and thsts kinda scary,, cant rlly afford to fuck around like i usually do when the tuition is ctazy expensive.. and to think that one year ago i was being anxious about how ill never get in with my one line of 7 in math8 and other two lines of 7 in mathsci9,, that whole thing with no grade below 80 genuinely upset me back then thags crazy,,,, it is ehat it is i suppose. I can only hope for better days to come

4/21/26 technically not even on break yet but im so horrendously bored alrwayd its irritating.... So much i wanna do so little motivation to do anyting let alone wake up any earlier than 12 pm....... I have like 4-5 months of break so i should rlly makr the most of it before beign sent back to hell!! I wanna see if i can learn the piano maybe,, learn how to draw, learn some coding languages, mayb learn how to edit and stuff, i still need to redo this entire page,, aaaand i wanna start going through the stuff i wanna read/watch ... Ill read lots and lots of yuri this break and maybe make some progress on the 10000+ voice dramas i need to go trhough 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️